i have a secret held deep in my heart.

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adjective ( stronger |strô ng gər|, strongest |strô ng gist|)
1 having the power to move heavy weights or perform other physically demanding tasks.




something that i am not...both emotionally and physically.

so lost.

i wanted so bad to kiss him. but i didn’t. I knew it would hurt too much. so instead i just held onto him and looked into his eyes.

My mind goes over and over and over.
I can't stop thinking, and need to stop.
It's just hurting me even more and i don't think i can deal with it.
But what if, everything im saying is just to keep my mind at ease.
What if, it wasn't true, what if i made it all up?
I'm so scared that he will move on quicker than i expect.
what will happen then? i guess i will have to deal with it.
I know i have to stop, i have to let go, but right now, i can't.
Not letting go is probably the thing that is going to make it worse.
i can't let go, not just yet, because truthfully, im in love with him.

his heart. your heart

His heart. Your Heart.
Both fragile both hurt.

These days everything hurts, nothing ever makes it better. Nothing anyone except that one person does can help you.
But they can’t do anything because they are hurting too, you both are.
It’s killing you inside and its killing him.
If you give it time it should get better and even though you know you shouldn’t doubt that, you do.
You believe everything he says to you because he makes everything alright.
You have so much to say but you don’t know how to.
You just want this to be over, want it all to be good again.

His Heart. Your Heart.
Both fragile. Both hurt.

Your mind goes around and around constantly, trying to figure out what to say, trying to figure out what the right thing to do is.
Take it one step at a time. One breath at a time.
Take extra care of what you say, think about it before you speak for what you say could have a really bad outcome and just hurt much more than you intended to.
You tread slowly and quietly maybe then that will make it all good.

His Heart. Your Heart.
Both fragile. Both Hurt.

Lets find the nearest road and follow where it leads.
Lets just go and not look back.
Lets leave everything behind and drive all night and all day.
Lets just go anywhere other than here,
anywhere to forget the world.